1 00:00:00,001 --> 00:00:01,429 I'm going now. 2 00:00:02,894 --> 00:00:04,195 Sorry. 3 00:00:06,900 --> 00:00:08,578 Okay, bye. 4 00:00:10,278 --> 00:00:11,906 Love you. 5 00:00:12,687 --> 00:00:14,375 [DOOR CLOSES] 6 00:00:15,858 --> 00:00:20,858 Synced and corrected by QueenMaddie www.addic7ed.com 7 00:00:29,134 --> 00:00:30,617 [SNIFFLES] 8 00:00:31,703 --> 00:00:32,943 Nicholas? 9 00:00:33,239 --> 00:00:35,039 - What are you doing down there? - Um... 10 00:00:35,064 --> 00:00:36,585 I, just, um... 11 00:00:36,610 --> 00:00:38,367 Sittin' on the floor. That's what I do. 12 00:00:38,392 --> 00:00:40,015 I'm a floor-sitter now. 13 00:00:40,040 --> 00:00:41,242 Have you seen Alex? 14 00:00:41,267 --> 00:00:42,937 I need help lifting the table. 15 00:00:42,962 --> 00:00:46,195 NICHOLAS: No, Alex left. He dumped me actually, yep. 16 00:00:47,107 --> 00:00:49,757 He broke up with you? 17 00:00:49,782 --> 00:00:51,262 - Yeah. - Ugh. 18 00:00:51,849 --> 00:00:53,851 Why on Earth would he do something like that 19 00:00:53,876 --> 00:00:55,843 to someone as decent as you? 20 00:00:55,868 --> 00:00:58,968 Uh, he, um, he thinks I don't love him. 21 00:00:59,801 --> 00:01:02,949 That is... absurd. 22 00:01:02,974 --> 00:01:04,772 He said we were "in different movies." 23 00:01:04,797 --> 00:01:06,410 Why couldn't I tell? 24 00:01:06,435 --> 00:01:08,627 Uh, man, if he didn't feel loved by me, 25 00:01:08,652 --> 00:01:10,465 then I don't know what hope I have 26 00:01:10,490 --> 00:01:13,865 because that was the hardest I've ever worked to try 27 00:01:13,890 --> 00:01:15,927 and show someone I love them. Like, that was my best. 28 00:01:15,951 --> 00:01:18,652 I definitely, like, I gave him my best. 29 00:01:18,677 --> 00:01:21,375 It appears there was a pretty major disconnect. 30 00:01:21,400 --> 00:01:24,300 Yes, that's what I'm tryin' to say, yeah. 31 00:01:24,669 --> 00:01:26,527 Yeah. 32 00:01:27,188 --> 00:01:29,801 Nicholas, may I tell a story? 33 00:01:29,963 --> 00:01:31,433 Why not? 34 00:01:32,652 --> 00:01:35,512 When Drea was seven, I lost my mom. 35 00:01:35,968 --> 00:01:38,907 And I cried a lot. Drea... 36 00:01:38,932 --> 00:01:42,160 didn't show much emotion. She just kept asking, 37 00:01:42,185 --> 00:01:43,598 "What do you need? What do you need?" 38 00:01:43,622 --> 00:01:47,065 - Well, that's sweet. - It was. 39 00:01:47,090 --> 00:01:49,450 But one day I just... 40 00:01:49,475 --> 00:01:50,862 I just snapped. 41 00:01:50,887 --> 00:01:53,456 And... I shouted, 42 00:01:53,481 --> 00:01:54,887 "The only thing I need 43 00:01:54,912 --> 00:01:58,207 is not to be the only sad person in this house!" 44 00:01:59,360 --> 00:02:02,293 I said that to a, to a child. 45 00:02:03,020 --> 00:02:04,949 And Drea, 46 00:02:04,974 --> 00:02:07,551 she just looked up at me, and she said, 47 00:02:07,576 --> 00:02:10,646 "I feel sad you have more sad than me, 48 00:02:10,671 --> 00:02:12,817 which is why I wanna help." 49 00:02:13,497 --> 00:02:16,270 Drea cared about my mom, she cared about me, 50 00:02:16,295 --> 00:02:19,324 she just cared in a different way. 51 00:02:19,599 --> 00:02:21,819 We know now that's because her brain 52 00:02:21,844 --> 00:02:24,656 works differently from other people's brains. 53 00:02:24,681 --> 00:02:27,707 You know not worse, just different. 54 00:02:28,210 --> 00:02:30,121 The only problem was that... 55 00:02:30,459 --> 00:02:32,785 sometimes people didn't understand this 56 00:02:32,810 --> 00:02:36,777 and they often interpret her actions more harshly 57 00:02:36,802 --> 00:02:39,934 than the truth of her intentions. 58 00:02:40,127 --> 00:02:41,127 Uh-huh. 59 00:02:41,152 --> 00:02:43,746 I made you a mimosa. 60 00:02:43,771 --> 00:02:45,239 Suze, I don't think that story offered me 61 00:02:45,263 --> 00:02:47,110 the clarity you hoped it would. 62 00:02:47,135 --> 00:02:49,856 Well, maybe that's what's happening here. 63 00:02:50,306 --> 00:02:51,832 Nicholas... 64 00:02:52,382 --> 00:02:54,241 It's starting to look more and more likely 65 00:02:54,266 --> 00:02:57,285 that you are autistic. 66 00:02:57,349 --> 00:02:58,970 What? 67 00:02:59,237 --> 00:03:00,730 Suze, what the hell? 68 00:03:00,755 --> 00:03:02,051 Oh, no. Okay. 69 00:03:02,076 --> 00:03:04,160 I'm s... I'm sorry. Yeah, I've... 70 00:03:04,185 --> 00:03:05,799 No, I have the bad timing. 71 00:03:05,824 --> 00:03:08,902 I was just tryin' to help you feel less confused. 72 00:03:08,927 --> 00:03:11,166 Suze, dude. Nah. 73 00:03:11,652 --> 00:03:13,722 - Nah, man. - Okay. 74 00:03:13,747 --> 00:03:15,261 - Okay. - [DOOR OPENS] 75 00:03:16,101 --> 00:03:18,676 I didn't know we were allowed to be in here. 76 00:03:18,701 --> 00:03:20,050 Welcome. 77 00:03:21,442 --> 00:03:22,955 I'm not well. 78 00:03:22,980 --> 00:03:24,497 They're so high-pitched. 79 00:03:24,521 --> 00:03:26,081 Have you ever noticed that? 80 00:03:26,106 --> 00:03:28,134 Alex dumped me and Suze thinks I'm autistic. 81 00:03:28,159 --> 00:03:29,308 What? 82 00:03:29,333 --> 00:03:32,298 Well, Alex felt disconnected from Nicholas. 83 00:03:32,323 --> 00:03:35,409 No. No, I'm-I'm sorry, Suze. He's not autistic. 84 00:03:35,434 --> 00:03:38,034 - He's just a bad boyfriend. - Thank you. 85 00:03:38,825 --> 00:03:41,029 Oh, dear. I've created a snowball, haven't I? 86 00:03:41,054 --> 00:03:43,212 - No, no snowballs. - [DOOR OPENS] 87 00:03:43,237 --> 00:03:45,542 Aha! There you are. 88 00:03:45,567 --> 00:03:46,923 I'm just gonna get the colander. 89 00:03:46,948 --> 00:03:47,995 - Nicholas... - No. 90 00:03:48,020 --> 00:03:49,706 - Toby. Toby. - TOBY: All right, I'll get it. 91 00:03:49,730 --> 00:03:52,191 Nicholas has just had his very heart torn in two, 92 00:03:52,215 --> 00:03:53,709 and tossed carelessly into a dumpster 93 00:03:53,733 --> 00:03:55,511 by a deeply inconsiderate Alex, 94 00:03:55,536 --> 00:03:58,816 who we are absolutely not a fan of. 95 00:03:59,723 --> 00:04:01,503 Oh, Nicholas... 96 00:04:02,796 --> 00:04:06,112 Oh, buddy, I'm-I'm so sorry. 97 00:04:07,528 --> 00:04:10,347 Aah! You were such a great couple. 98 00:04:10,372 --> 00:04:12,034 You know, it's such a shame. 99 00:04:12,059 --> 00:04:14,823 You brought the chaos, he brought the order. 100 00:04:16,348 --> 00:04:18,495 This is so sad. 101 00:04:19,116 --> 00:04:21,361 Nicholas, love is a crazy game. 102 00:04:21,386 --> 00:04:23,909 Okay, it's not a game per se, but it... 103 00:04:25,706 --> 00:04:26,847 I'm sorry. 104 00:04:26,872 --> 00:04:29,267 I don't why this is affecting me so much. 105 00:04:29,292 --> 00:04:31,409 It's because it's-it's sad, Toby. 106 00:04:31,434 --> 00:04:33,933 - It is, it's so sad. - [DOOR CLOSES] 107 00:04:36,851 --> 00:04:38,550 [SNIFFLES] 108 00:04:39,423 --> 00:04:41,058 Why are people crying? 109 00:04:41,083 --> 00:04:43,266 'Cause they're happy for us. 110 00:04:43,291 --> 00:04:45,377 [LAUGHS] Yeah, that's 'cause we are so happy. 111 00:04:45,402 --> 00:04:47,580 - SUZE: Yes, we are! - Yeah. 112 00:04:47,604 --> 00:04:49,528 BARB: Moss family? 113 00:04:49,553 --> 00:04:51,573 Are you guys hiding from me? 114 00:04:51,908 --> 00:04:53,601 I noticed that Alex left. 115 00:04:53,626 --> 00:04:55,214 And I was wondering if you guys 116 00:04:55,239 --> 00:04:57,519 would be cool and give me a ride home? 117 00:04:58,231 --> 00:05:00,005 Yeah, we can give you a ride home. 118 00:05:00,030 --> 00:05:01,030 [SNIFFLES] 119 00:05:08,570 --> 00:05:10,253 [SIGHS] 120 00:05:10,278 --> 00:05:12,030 I'm sorry it's so messy. 121 00:05:12,055 --> 00:05:13,164 I really thought I cleaned up, 122 00:05:13,188 --> 00:05:14,923 but, yeah, I mean, I guess I didn't. 123 00:05:14,948 --> 00:05:16,764 Don't even worry about it. 124 00:05:17,401 --> 00:05:19,483 I'll get out of your way. Yeah. 125 00:05:19,508 --> 00:05:21,303 Standing felt formal, but no, it's fine. 126 00:05:21,328 --> 00:05:22,843 I guess I'll stand. 127 00:05:23,084 --> 00:05:25,342 Whatever is comfortable. I'll be done in a minute. 128 00:05:25,367 --> 00:05:26,764 Is that like all your stuff? 129 00:05:27,025 --> 00:05:28,405 Yeah. 130 00:05:29,547 --> 00:05:31,827 Did you like never move in? 131 00:05:31,852 --> 00:05:33,092 I moved in. 132 00:05:33,117 --> 00:05:35,690 It's not like you offered me a drawer or anything. 133 00:05:35,715 --> 00:05:37,479 Was I supposed to offer you a drawer? 134 00:05:37,797 --> 00:05:39,055 I think so. 135 00:05:39,080 --> 00:05:40,633 But you have a drawer. 136 00:05:40,658 --> 00:05:43,415 Well, yeah, eventually, just took one without asking. 137 00:05:43,440 --> 00:05:45,559 Of course. Why ask? Who cares? 138 00:05:45,584 --> 00:05:46,750 I don't know, Nicholas. 139 00:05:46,775 --> 00:05:49,158 Maybe with the next guy offering them a drawer 140 00:05:49,183 --> 00:05:50,542 would make them feel more welcome? 141 00:05:50,566 --> 00:05:52,644 But... I never offered you a drawer 142 00:05:52,669 --> 00:05:54,205 because you've got a drawer. 143 00:05:54,230 --> 00:05:55,950 You go in there, you fuss about 144 00:05:55,975 --> 00:05:58,483 and you come back in different clothes. A good system. 145 00:05:58,940 --> 00:06:00,766 Do you even know where I kept my stuff? 146 00:06:00,791 --> 00:06:03,494 No. I didn't look into it 'cause it's not interesting. 147 00:06:03,519 --> 00:06:05,221 You go over there, you do a menial task, 148 00:06:05,246 --> 00:06:07,736 and I sit here on my phone. It's nice. 149 00:06:08,352 --> 00:06:09,565 Sorry, I didn't realize 150 00:06:09,590 --> 00:06:11,885 this had such emotional stakes for you. 151 00:06:11,910 --> 00:06:13,440 Just put things wherever you want. 152 00:06:13,465 --> 00:06:15,250 There's so much space to put things. 153 00:06:15,275 --> 00:06:16,861 Oh, I took up as much space 154 00:06:16,886 --> 00:06:18,205 as was there for me, Nicholas. 155 00:06:18,230 --> 00:06:19,807 Oh, I see. Are we doing a metaphor? 156 00:06:19,832 --> 00:06:22,173 And the drawer is that I didn't open up a piece of me 157 00:06:22,198 --> 00:06:24,440 for you to put stuff in? Because, actually, 158 00:06:24,465 --> 00:06:26,072 that's very confusing. 159 00:06:26,097 --> 00:06:28,363 'Cause actually I've opened up so much of me 160 00:06:28,388 --> 00:06:31,485 and you've put so much in me, and I took it. 161 00:06:31,510 --> 00:06:33,477 I took it, and I know... 162 00:06:33,502 --> 00:06:35,743 Look, I know it sounds like I'm talking about penises. 163 00:06:35,768 --> 00:06:37,158 But I'm not talking about penises. 164 00:06:37,183 --> 00:06:38,222 I'm talking about feelings. 165 00:06:38,246 --> 00:06:40,268 And also I'm probably talking about penises. 166 00:06:40,293 --> 00:06:41,877 You're trying to be all funny and clever 167 00:06:41,901 --> 00:06:44,697 to distract me from my very real and valid feelings. 168 00:06:44,721 --> 00:06:46,256 But it doesn't work anymore. 169 00:06:46,281 --> 00:06:48,549 Okay. Fine. 170 00:06:49,559 --> 00:06:51,293 Are you getting along? 171 00:06:51,871 --> 00:06:53,230 Yes. 172 00:06:53,255 --> 00:06:54,735 Very well. 173 00:06:55,616 --> 00:06:56,836 I'm relieved. 174 00:06:56,861 --> 00:06:59,711 Because Alex is one of my best friends. 175 00:06:59,736 --> 00:07:01,969 And, Alex... 176 00:07:02,244 --> 00:07:03,549 I want you to come to the wedding. 177 00:07:03,573 --> 00:07:06,125 I made you an invitation. 178 00:07:06,610 --> 00:07:08,144 And... 179 00:07:08,169 --> 00:07:11,086 it wouldn't be the same without you. 180 00:07:11,227 --> 00:07:13,454 Please come to my wedding. 181 00:07:14,375 --> 00:07:15,774 Hmm. 182 00:07:16,272 --> 00:07:18,227 I wouldn't dare miss it. 183 00:07:23,518 --> 00:07:25,840 I guess we won't have sex? 184 00:07:26,010 --> 00:07:27,800 Do you even want it? 185 00:07:27,825 --> 00:07:29,511 I can't tell. 186 00:07:29,997 --> 00:07:32,004 Maybe with blindfolds. 187 00:08:03,734 --> 00:08:05,222 Nicholas? 188 00:08:05,247 --> 00:08:06,874 Is that my sweet sister Genevieve 189 00:08:06,899 --> 00:08:08,894 come to rescue me from the feelings? 190 00:08:08,919 --> 00:08:11,016 So, the thing is... 191 00:08:12,066 --> 00:08:13,909 Um, maybe... 192 00:08:14,432 --> 00:08:16,402 maybe you are autistic. 193 00:08:20,238 --> 00:08:21,884 I thought I knew everything about autism 194 00:08:21,909 --> 00:08:23,699 because of Matilda, but... 195 00:08:23,724 --> 00:08:25,964 Actually I think I don't know much about autism. 196 00:08:25,989 --> 00:08:28,777 I just know everything about Matilda. 197 00:08:29,716 --> 00:08:33,613 So, if-if you need... to, um... 198 00:08:35,331 --> 00:08:36,589 No. 199 00:08:36,614 --> 00:08:38,324 Okay. 200 00:08:38,827 --> 00:08:41,284 Yeah, you can just keep hiding. 201 00:08:41,309 --> 00:08:42,518 NICHOLAS: Thank you. 202 00:08:42,543 --> 00:08:44,566 Mm-hmm. Right, so, um... 203 00:08:46,211 --> 00:08:47,644 So there are these tests. 204 00:08:47,669 --> 00:08:51,009 Uh, these screening tests, and so I did them, 205 00:08:51,034 --> 00:08:54,659 um, as you in character. And, well... 206 00:08:54,684 --> 00:08:58,536 they say that me masquerading as you... 207 00:08:59,384 --> 00:09:01,841 have some autistic tendencies. 208 00:09:01,996 --> 00:09:04,185 Genevieve, I'm already gay and I have ADHD. 209 00:09:04,210 --> 00:09:06,287 I don't need any more stigmas. 210 00:09:06,312 --> 00:09:09,696 You're almost rich enough to call them eccentricities. 211 00:09:11,189 --> 00:09:13,438 It's just that... 212 00:09:14,073 --> 00:09:16,243 You have difficulty interpreting 213 00:09:16,268 --> 00:09:17,954 how others are feeling and thinking, 214 00:09:17,979 --> 00:09:19,937 and your social anxiety. 215 00:09:19,962 --> 00:09:21,516 NICHOLAS: Name one social situation 216 00:09:21,541 --> 00:09:23,185 you don't wish was canceled. 217 00:09:23,652 --> 00:09:25,180 Also... 218 00:09:25,856 --> 00:09:27,640 you got that strange accent 219 00:09:27,665 --> 00:09:29,825 and also you're an entomologist, 220 00:09:29,850 --> 00:09:31,290 you collect insects. 221 00:09:31,315 --> 00:09:33,454 Nicholas, you collect insects. 222 00:09:33,746 --> 00:09:37,035 - NICHOLAS: My accent's Australia. - It isn't though, is it? 223 00:09:37,060 --> 00:09:38,184 NICHOLAS: Yeah. 224 00:09:38,209 --> 00:09:41,205 I've seen "The Crocodile Hunter," and it ain't you. 225 00:09:41,230 --> 00:09:42,645 NICHOLAS: Crikey. 226 00:09:42,696 --> 00:09:43,949 Yeah, um... 227 00:09:43,974 --> 00:09:44,974 No. 228 00:09:45,406 --> 00:09:46,911 Another time. 229 00:09:49,051 --> 00:09:51,237 How's he doing? Any better? 230 00:09:51,262 --> 00:09:54,028 Yes, Matilda, very good. Excited for the wedding. 231 00:09:54,053 --> 00:09:55,197 Do you have any questions 232 00:09:55,222 --> 00:09:57,238 about the tasks that I emailed you? 233 00:09:57,263 --> 00:09:58,948 No. Nope. All good. 234 00:09:58,973 --> 00:10:00,059 Great! 235 00:10:00,083 --> 00:10:01,840 Go, Team Matilda! 236 00:10:01,865 --> 00:10:03,300 - Team Matilda. - Matilda. 237 00:10:03,325 --> 00:10:04,884 Yes! 238 00:10:05,418 --> 00:10:07,807 I didn't read the email. I didn't read it. 239 00:10:08,095 --> 00:10:11,329 She has you down for an ambitious amount of carpentry. 240 00:10:17,470 --> 00:10:20,166 GENEVIEVE: "Bullies often targeted me in grade school." 241 00:10:20,191 --> 00:10:21,595 Very often. 242 00:10:22,165 --> 00:10:23,546 Um... 243 00:10:23,571 --> 00:10:26,918 "I get so absorbed in a detail I lose sight of the whole." 244 00:10:27,255 --> 00:10:28,844 Very often. 245 00:10:29,553 --> 00:10:31,105 "I have a hairstyle 246 00:10:31,130 --> 00:10:33,829 others might consider eccentric." 247 00:10:37,486 --> 00:10:41,306 "I prefer to read non-fiction over fiction." 248 00:10:41,870 --> 00:10:43,268 Well, I don't know how I'm supposed to care 249 00:10:43,292 --> 00:10:44,339 that some made-up character 250 00:10:44,363 --> 00:10:46,331 cares what some other made-up character did. 251 00:10:47,598 --> 00:10:51,088 "I can easily create a picture of something in my mind." 252 00:10:52,607 --> 00:10:54,721 I don't know. I don't know. 253 00:10:55,466 --> 00:10:58,040 Well, how easy is it supposed to be to create a picture? 254 00:10:58,065 --> 00:10:59,890 Yeah, yeah, I don't know. 255 00:11:01,222 --> 00:11:03,788 Well, you say something and I'll imagine it. 256 00:11:03,813 --> 00:11:06,307 Um, a bird. 257 00:11:06,606 --> 00:11:07,971 Okay. 258 00:11:07,996 --> 00:11:09,574 Yeah, good. Done. Easy. 259 00:11:09,599 --> 00:11:11,759 What type of bird is it? 260 00:11:14,322 --> 00:11:15,893 Well, I don't know. 261 00:11:16,325 --> 00:11:17,995 I don't know. 262 00:11:19,594 --> 00:11:22,753 - I don't wanna do this anymore. - Okay. 263 00:11:24,890 --> 00:11:28,503 "I find it difficult to make or maintain eye contact." 264 00:11:28,625 --> 00:11:30,018 Yes. 265 00:11:30,182 --> 00:11:33,163 Unless I'm trying to trick someone into falling in love with me. 266 00:11:34,694 --> 00:11:37,863 "I enjoy collecting information on the categories of things." 267 00:11:37,888 --> 00:11:39,448 Yes. 268 00:11:40,231 --> 00:11:43,134 "I am often captivated by running water." 269 00:11:43,159 --> 00:11:44,509 What? 270 00:11:44,690 --> 00:11:45,759 Really? 271 00:11:45,784 --> 00:11:46,884 Yeah. 272 00:11:46,909 --> 00:11:48,590 Everyone is. Aren't they? 273 00:11:48,615 --> 00:11:50,017 Everyone loves running water. 274 00:11:50,042 --> 00:11:52,669 People love a brook, don't they? Don't you love a brook? 275 00:11:52,694 --> 00:11:54,656 Look, it's really not easy for me to work out 276 00:11:54,681 --> 00:11:56,885 how much I'm supposed to speak during this. 277 00:11:56,910 --> 00:11:58,825 [SIGHS] 278 00:12:00,885 --> 00:12:03,499 When I was in the third grade sometimes I'd throw myself 279 00:12:03,524 --> 00:12:05,441 off the top bunk of the bed 280 00:12:05,466 --> 00:12:08,036 because all the kids at school with casts were so popular 281 00:12:08,061 --> 00:12:11,677 and I thought if I broke my arm that that would make me popular. 282 00:12:12,096 --> 00:12:13,770 Okay. 283 00:12:15,891 --> 00:12:18,196 Seems pretty misguided. 284 00:12:18,416 --> 00:12:20,098 Yeah. 285 00:12:25,652 --> 00:12:27,323 SUZE: Category is... 286 00:12:27,348 --> 00:12:28,874 mother of the bride! 287 00:12:28,898 --> 00:12:29,966 TOBY: We are ready. 288 00:12:29,990 --> 00:12:31,560 - Yes, please. - SUZE: All right. 289 00:12:31,584 --> 00:12:33,475 [LAUGHING] 290 00:12:33,500 --> 00:12:34,981 Ooh! 291 00:12:35,006 --> 00:12:36,981 - SUZE: Can you believe it? - NICHOLAS: Oh. 292 00:12:39,497 --> 00:12:41,669 Wow! 293 00:12:41,694 --> 00:12:43,769 It's a knockoff, but you can't even tell. 294 00:12:43,794 --> 00:12:45,934 Honey, are you sure that's the right size? 295 00:12:45,959 --> 00:12:47,603 What are you trying to say, Toby? 296 00:12:47,628 --> 00:12:50,278 Uh, I mean, don't I look pretty? 297 00:12:50,303 --> 00:12:52,051 Maybe we should email somebody. 298 00:12:52,076 --> 00:12:54,200 To say thank you? 299 00:12:54,971 --> 00:12:56,641 [LAUGHS] Can you believe it? 300 00:12:56,666 --> 00:12:58,614 [SUZE AND NICHOLAS LAUGHING] 301 00:12:59,302 --> 00:13:01,138 Ooh-ooh-ooh. 302 00:13:09,962 --> 00:13:12,223 You guys are pretty good friends, huh? 303 00:13:12,465 --> 00:13:13,966 - Hmm? - Yeah. 304 00:13:13,991 --> 00:13:16,583 Yeah, I think they might be your only friends. 305 00:13:17,561 --> 00:13:18,561 Hmm. 306 00:13:19,208 --> 00:13:20,677 "It's difficult to imagine 307 00:13:20,702 --> 00:13:22,677 what it would be like to be someone else." 308 00:13:22,702 --> 00:13:23,702 Yes. 309 00:13:23,727 --> 00:13:26,903 For example, some people like cats and videos of cats. 310 00:13:27,174 --> 00:13:28,317 I'm trying to be neutral, 311 00:13:28,342 --> 00:13:30,638 but I have to agree you're terrible at it. 312 00:13:31,897 --> 00:13:33,005 I have to add it up. 313 00:13:33,030 --> 00:13:34,442 How are you feeling? 314 00:13:34,467 --> 00:13:37,141 I'm thinking about getting those Korean fish pastries. 315 00:13:37,166 --> 00:13:39,204 - Yes, please. - Of course. 316 00:13:39,229 --> 00:13:42,155 [INHALES AND EXHALES DEEPLY] 317 00:13:43,054 --> 00:13:44,312 When I was a kid, 318 00:13:44,337 --> 00:13:46,268 my ma, she was always sending me to hearing tests. 319 00:13:46,292 --> 00:13:47,952 I spent my whole childhood in a booth 320 00:13:47,977 --> 00:13:50,598 wearing huge headphones, being asked if I could hear the beep. 321 00:13:50,623 --> 00:13:52,123 And... 322 00:13:52,148 --> 00:13:54,782 it was always a, "Yeah, yeah, I can hear the beep. 323 00:13:54,807 --> 00:13:56,852 I can hear..." I actually have amazing hearing. 324 00:13:56,877 --> 00:13:58,658 And then, uh... 325 00:13:59,611 --> 00:14:01,816 I don't know, she was always, like, so disappointed 326 00:14:01,841 --> 00:14:03,853 to find out I wasn't deaf. 327 00:14:05,177 --> 00:14:06,501 That's not normal. 328 00:14:06,526 --> 00:14:07,994 GENEVIEVE: No. 329 00:14:08,331 --> 00:14:09,962 [KEYBOARD KEYS CLACKING] 330 00:14:12,536 --> 00:14:14,673 It says you're autistic. 331 00:14:15,702 --> 00:14:17,481 Like... Like, a bit? 332 00:14:17,560 --> 00:14:19,173 Hmm... 333 00:14:20,228 --> 00:14:22,859 Yeah, quite high, like... 334 00:14:22,884 --> 00:14:24,853 like, above borderline. 335 00:14:25,493 --> 00:14:26,758 Right. 336 00:14:28,979 --> 00:14:32,259 Mm-hmm. [CLICKS TONGUE] 337 00:14:36,824 --> 00:14:39,454 - Do you want custard? - Yeah. 338 00:14:39,770 --> 00:14:41,447 Yeah. 339 00:14:44,517 --> 00:14:45,596 Okay. 340 00:14:59,674 --> 00:15:01,009 So... 341 00:15:02,181 --> 00:15:03,454 What? 342 00:15:03,939 --> 00:15:07,457 - What's going on with you? - Well... 343 00:15:07,482 --> 00:15:08,947 Um... 344 00:15:10,131 --> 00:15:12,677 I feel sort of weezle-wozzle, don't I? 345 00:15:13,784 --> 00:15:14,928 It's just so hard to know 346 00:15:14,953 --> 00:15:16,662 if I answered those questions right. 347 00:15:16,687 --> 00:15:19,220 Nicholas, you answered those questions right. 348 00:15:19,245 --> 00:15:20,957 - Really? - Mm-hmm. 349 00:15:20,982 --> 00:15:22,603 I just think that, actually, if you ask me again 350 00:15:22,627 --> 00:15:24,822 to mention a specific bird, 351 00:15:24,847 --> 00:15:26,273 I could do it, I'll do it. 352 00:15:26,297 --> 00:15:28,206 I'm imagining a rainbow lorikeet. 353 00:15:28,231 --> 00:15:29,892 It's rainbow, and... 354 00:15:30,802 --> 00:15:32,266 Yeah, I don't like talking to new people, 355 00:15:32,290 --> 00:15:34,114 but nobody does. Who likes talking to new people? 356 00:15:34,138 --> 00:15:35,927 It's crazy to like talking to new people. 357 00:15:35,952 --> 00:15:39,332 And, yeah, I don't like the sound of fans. 358 00:15:39,573 --> 00:15:40,791 I really don't like it, 359 00:15:40,816 --> 00:15:42,986 but it seems pretty intense to take that 360 00:15:43,011 --> 00:15:44,369 and parlay it into me being, 361 00:15:44,394 --> 00:15:46,972 quite suddenly, autistic. Doesn't it? 362 00:15:47,910 --> 00:15:49,691 Honestly, I don't wanna be autistic, okay? 363 00:15:49,716 --> 00:15:50,965 Because then everyone's gonna look at me 364 00:15:50,989 --> 00:15:52,949 and they're gonna think, "Oh, that's Nicholas. He's autistic." 365 00:15:52,973 --> 00:15:54,769 When I used to just be Nicholas. 366 00:15:56,402 --> 00:15:58,431 I thought this family was all like, 367 00:15:58,456 --> 00:16:01,097 "Autistic Pride," et cetera. 368 00:16:01,308 --> 00:16:02,342 Yeah. 369 00:16:02,367 --> 00:16:04,363 So what am I missing? 370 00:16:04,788 --> 00:16:05,788 Well... 371 00:16:07,080 --> 00:16:08,885 It's easier to be proud for somebody else 372 00:16:08,910 --> 00:16:11,089 than it is for yourself, isn't it? 373 00:16:12,638 --> 00:16:14,417 It just is. 374 00:16:16,624 --> 00:16:18,347 [RATTLING] 375 00:16:18,679 --> 00:16:19,937 Should I help? 376 00:16:19,962 --> 00:16:21,769 No, I have to learn. 377 00:16:23,037 --> 00:16:25,933 - Are you curious what I brought? - Not yet. 378 00:16:26,571 --> 00:16:29,393 - NICHOLAS: It's a picnic. - MATILDA: I'm not hungry. 379 00:16:30,665 --> 00:16:32,620 - Ohh! - [SIGHS] 380 00:16:34,161 --> 00:16:36,292 NICHOLAS: Oh, la, la! 381 00:16:36,733 --> 00:16:38,995 Wow! 382 00:16:39,134 --> 00:16:40,254 Which color? 383 00:16:40,872 --> 00:16:42,182 What vibe are you going for? 384 00:16:42,206 --> 00:16:44,979 Happy, independent, feminine. 385 00:16:45,004 --> 00:16:48,493 You know, I just really love this soft blue. 386 00:16:48,518 --> 00:16:49,872 Nicholas... 387 00:16:50,123 --> 00:16:52,909 - that's my favorite too! - What? 388 00:16:53,217 --> 00:16:54,454 - Yes. - That's your favorite? 389 00:16:54,479 --> 00:16:56,787 - Yes. - And it's my favorite? 390 00:16:56,960 --> 00:16:58,946 Get outta town. What's it called? 391 00:16:58,971 --> 00:17:03,369 We don't know because we forgot to mark down 392 00:17:03,394 --> 00:17:05,262 which paint matches which paints. 393 00:17:05,287 --> 00:17:08,324 - But we have a plan. - What's the plan? 394 00:17:08,349 --> 00:17:10,144 To repaint all the splotches 395 00:17:10,169 --> 00:17:12,911 and remember to mark down which is which this time. 396 00:17:12,936 --> 00:17:13,976 Wow. 397 00:17:14,786 --> 00:17:16,599 That's a good plan. 398 00:17:16,809 --> 00:17:18,384 Isn't it? 399 00:17:18,537 --> 00:17:20,769 Sorted that right out. 400 00:17:21,798 --> 00:17:24,390 Can you believe how good this picnic I got for us is? 401 00:17:24,415 --> 00:17:26,076 I've decided not to bring my piano, 402 00:17:26,100 --> 00:17:27,654 so I have an excuse to leave 403 00:17:27,679 --> 00:17:29,091 if Drea annoys me. 404 00:17:29,380 --> 00:17:31,917 - So just nothing about the picnic? - It's good. 405 00:17:31,942 --> 00:17:34,400 Can you get me another one so I can do this with Drea 406 00:17:34,425 --> 00:17:37,155 and pretend like it was my idea? 407 00:17:37,180 --> 00:17:38,869 Yes, I can. Yeah. 408 00:17:39,356 --> 00:17:41,404 [LAUGHS] Babe, do you mind if we, um, 409 00:17:41,429 --> 00:17:43,377 talk about me for a second? 410 00:17:43,728 --> 00:17:47,080 You don't have to ask permission to not talk about me. 411 00:17:47,807 --> 00:17:49,731 [SIGHS] I just... Um, there's something I wanna tell you 412 00:17:49,755 --> 00:17:52,041 and I-I thought maybe I could get your advice. 413 00:17:52,477 --> 00:17:54,057 Of course. 414 00:17:56,465 --> 00:17:59,835 Well, I think that maybe I might also be autistic. 415 00:17:59,860 --> 00:18:01,180 No. 416 00:18:01,205 --> 00:18:02,428 No? 417 00:18:02,453 --> 00:18:04,352 No, I don't think so. 418 00:18:05,072 --> 00:18:06,875 Can you pass the quince paste? 419 00:18:06,900 --> 00:18:08,766 [LAUGHS] Wait. Wait, wait, wait, but... 420 00:18:08,791 --> 00:18:10,852 don't you wanna hear more about why I think that? 421 00:18:10,877 --> 00:18:13,383 You're just messy because you have ADHD 422 00:18:13,408 --> 00:18:15,141 and you don't follow things through. 423 00:18:15,166 --> 00:18:17,600 I think the ADHD has been a distraction. 424 00:18:17,625 --> 00:18:18,945 [SIGHS] 425 00:18:18,970 --> 00:18:21,461 Were you diagnosed with autism? 426 00:18:21,486 --> 00:18:23,749 - Well, no. - You're not autistic. 427 00:18:23,774 --> 00:18:24,967 Hmm. 428 00:18:24,992 --> 00:18:26,366 I think I might be. 429 00:18:26,391 --> 00:18:27,725 It's very offensive 430 00:18:27,750 --> 00:18:30,939 when people who aren't diagnosed pretend they're autistic 431 00:18:30,964 --> 00:18:34,160 to get away with their bad behavior. 432 00:18:34,497 --> 00:18:36,305 Yeah. Okay, but... 433 00:18:36,330 --> 00:18:38,131 I don't think that's what's going on here. 434 00:18:38,516 --> 00:18:39,819 Why are you so sure? 435 00:18:39,844 --> 00:18:41,135 Because you're fine. 436 00:18:41,159 --> 00:18:43,975 You've always been fine. 437 00:18:44,000 --> 00:18:46,342 Well, I guess that's nice that you think that, 438 00:18:46,367 --> 00:18:48,262 and I agree that I've always been like a happy guy, 439 00:18:48,286 --> 00:18:49,642 but I, um... 440 00:18:49,963 --> 00:18:52,569 You're not autistic, I promise. 441 00:18:52,898 --> 00:18:55,179 But I think maybe I am. 442 00:18:55,204 --> 00:18:56,438 Why? 443 00:18:56,463 --> 00:18:58,668 Well... Okay, um... 444 00:18:59,513 --> 00:19:01,140 You know, like, yeah, I appear fine, 445 00:19:01,165 --> 00:19:03,188 but that's because I put an embarrassing amount of work 446 00:19:03,212 --> 00:19:06,257 into camouflaging how confused I am 447 00:19:06,282 --> 00:19:07,941 and how twitchy I am, 448 00:19:07,966 --> 00:19:10,408 and just generally stopping myself 449 00:19:10,433 --> 00:19:12,899 from behaving the way I wanna behave and... 450 00:19:13,190 --> 00:19:15,541 I don't know, I feel like maybe Alex was the first person 451 00:19:15,566 --> 00:19:18,786 I let in close enough to see through that performance and... 452 00:19:19,748 --> 00:19:21,106 I sort of... 453 00:19:21,131 --> 00:19:22,482 I thought... 454 00:19:22,507 --> 00:19:24,932 everyone was doing as much work as me, 455 00:19:24,957 --> 00:19:27,583 but it turns out, no, it turns out some people, 456 00:19:27,977 --> 00:19:29,943 well, actually most people 457 00:19:29,968 --> 00:19:31,664 just know how to be. 458 00:19:31,856 --> 00:19:35,383 And, um, well, yeah, I didn't realize. 459 00:19:36,159 --> 00:19:37,907 Yes. 460 00:19:38,016 --> 00:19:40,046 Do you know the emotion that I'm talking about? 461 00:19:40,071 --> 00:19:43,000 That I appear fine but it's fake. Right? 462 00:19:43,025 --> 00:19:45,235 It's-it's a performance. It's... 463 00:19:45,677 --> 00:19:47,109 - Yes. - Exhausting. 464 00:19:47,134 --> 00:19:48,366 Yeah. Yes. 465 00:19:48,391 --> 00:19:49,680 Yes, I know it. 466 00:19:49,705 --> 00:19:51,071 Well, okay. 467 00:19:51,503 --> 00:19:53,352 Okay, fine. 468 00:19:53,377 --> 00:19:55,869 You're likely autistic. 469 00:19:55,894 --> 00:19:56,894 Yeah. 470 00:19:57,482 --> 00:19:58,752 Great. 471 00:19:58,777 --> 00:20:01,603 Uh, I wanna show you the shower curtain we had made. 472 00:20:01,628 --> 00:20:02,916 It has our faces on it. 473 00:20:02,941 --> 00:20:04,869 Okay. Yes, please. 474 00:20:07,654 --> 00:20:09,338 Wow! 475 00:20:09,859 --> 00:20:11,502 Very elegant. 476 00:20:16,868 --> 00:20:18,705 _ 477 00:20:18,824 --> 00:20:20,596 _ 478 00:20:21,352 --> 00:20:22,924 RECEPTIONIST: Nicholas? 479 00:20:25,004 --> 00:20:27,986 There are more pages behind the front page. 480 00:20:28,527 --> 00:20:30,025 NICHOLAS: Oh, my God. Oh, my God. 481 00:20:30,050 --> 00:20:31,339 Yeah, there's so many more pages. 482 00:20:31,363 --> 00:20:32,914 No, I can fill this out, but I'm so late already. 483 00:20:32,938 --> 00:20:34,512 Should I... Should I do this after? 484 00:20:34,537 --> 00:20:36,962 RECEPTIONIST: We need you to do it before the appointment. 485 00:20:36,987 --> 00:20:38,486 NICHOLAS: Okay. 486 00:20:38,673 --> 00:20:40,404 No, that makes sense, yeah. 487 00:20:40,429 --> 00:20:42,228 Ohh. 488 00:20:53,541 --> 00:20:54,994 Well, what is that? 489 00:20:55,019 --> 00:20:56,252 Give me it. Give me. Give me. 490 00:20:56,277 --> 00:20:58,041 It-it's a gift for you. 491 00:21:00,572 --> 00:21:01,883 A lizard? 492 00:21:01,908 --> 00:21:05,543 Um, more specifically, an emotional support lizard. 493 00:21:05,568 --> 00:21:07,572 Right. And that's for me, is it? 494 00:21:07,597 --> 00:21:08,846 - Yes. - Is that for me? 495 00:21:08,871 --> 00:21:10,103 - Yeah. - That's my lizard? 496 00:21:10,128 --> 00:21:11,722 Yeah, yeah, yeah. To help with your autism. 497 00:21:11,746 --> 00:21:14,275 Well, that's interesting, isn't it? Because, um, 498 00:21:14,300 --> 00:21:16,290 you're always asking me to buy you a lizard? 499 00:21:16,315 --> 00:21:17,533 - So... - Oh. 500 00:21:17,558 --> 00:21:19,244 So it seems like... 501 00:21:19,269 --> 00:21:20,892 - No. No, no, no. - No? 502 00:21:20,917 --> 00:21:23,449 That-that was just a phase. I've outgrown it. 503 00:21:23,474 --> 00:21:24,908 Oh. 504 00:21:25,319 --> 00:21:26,736 Terrible timing. 505 00:21:26,761 --> 00:21:28,636 It's actually a thoughtful gift for you 506 00:21:28,661 --> 00:21:31,111 because he eats bugs and you're an entomologist. 507 00:21:31,136 --> 00:21:32,807 Yes. I mean, of course. 508 00:21:32,832 --> 00:21:34,648 That just makes sense, doesn't it? 509 00:21:34,673 --> 00:21:36,794 How many times have you heard me say, 510 00:21:36,989 --> 00:21:40,221 "If you love something, feed it alive to a predator"? 511 00:21:40,246 --> 00:21:42,633 A cute little lizard pet. 512 00:21:42,658 --> 00:21:45,603 What better way to make an autistic house 513 00:21:45,628 --> 00:21:48,159 an autistic home? 514 00:21:48,209 --> 00:21:52,759 Repair and Synchronization by Easy Subtitles Synchronizer 1.0.0.0